Confusing yet you want it.
The feeling you get when you thought you had a chance but the truth is you really don`t know if there is.
You can’t tell if its a game and he’s just playing or its a game and he wanna win.
Something tells you that its something serious but something tells that its not.
Sometimes you feel that it’s sincere, but sometimes you feel like it is just a trick.
Some of his habbits will make you say “No”. But most of what you see and how he makes you feel makes you say “Yes”.
But every doubt disappears when you look at him.
His eyes that makes you believe and want to believe that everything’s dear.
His smile that melts every inch of you.
His flaws that makes him even more perfect for you. And also cuter which brings you laughter.
His (not so nice) attitude. But will make you feel he’s trustworthy.
His presence that makes you feel you’re not alone.
His affection that makes you feel loved.
And all of him.
Him who makes you wanna believe every lie that comes out of his mouth.
Him who makes you feel good but so bad for you.
Why do you choose to believe lies? Why do you keep on holding on something with minimal assurance? Why do you continue even if you know that it will end up in a terrifying way?
It’s because you deserve happiness.
That you don’t care of the ending anymore because you’re happy at the moment.
Thinking of how it could end makes me feel sick. Makes me feel unwell.